Last night was really tough, I’ve been going through emotional stress at the moment with the added difficulties of trying to fit in everything that needs to be done, and its getting to me.

One thing you should know (if you haven’t figured it out already) is that I’m full of pride, sometimes when you’ve hit an all time low pride is really all that you’ve got. Another thing is that I’m a really passive person. Put those two together mixed with drama and poof, a recipe for disaster.

I am not getting into specifics because I do not blog so that gossip mongrels could take a whiff of my life, but to vent and let it all out. And venting I shall do.

I’m going to start by saying its my fault. Usually my being passive saves me a lot of shit to fix and that’s good, this time though that trait has put me into deep shit.

I am not one to grovel, I give up easily, I don’t really exert a lot of efforts into a relationship. In my mind, whats done is done and if that’s what you want then fine, I will not beg for you to change your mind. I go on.

I guess I’ve found the person that’s an exception to every rule that I’ve ever had. Last night every ounce of pride that’s left in me vanished as I got to my knees and begged for him to forgive me, to fix it; he wouldn’t even look at me.

I know it sounds really bad but I’m only holding up because of him. Long story short, with begging and lots of crying I was forgiven. But its not the same as before as we’re both hunted by that mistake. One mistake.

I don’t know if its just plain paranoia on my part but I hope it gets better. I’m willing to work on it, I really am. All I want is to just go back to the easy way we used to work. But I guess life isn’t always easy and the universe has this quota of happiness before you reach a halt. I guess I’ve used up my quota and I’m in the halt.

And I know I’m gonna spend a significant amount of time trying to make up for my fuck up but whatever, I gotta do what I gotta do.

Well they went to the movies but I don’t feel like baby sitting my cousins while watching a film wherein Marian Rivera is starring… so yeah. I’d rather be inside with my non school related books and catch up on some reading.

But Imma take lots of photos from the photobooth and be merry.

Whats up with your Christmas?

Arch of the Centuries. @UST Paskuhan 2011

davisnedward:

But I just finally got time to watch the finale of America’s Next Top Model: All Stars. And I have a few choice thoughts:

• That Covergirl shoot was stupid as hell. Like really. Allison looked amazing and Angelea looked like a ghetto ho. 
• Allison clearly rocked the Vogue Italia shoot better than the other two.
• The final runway show, let’s be real. Swimming: Allison wins. Flying: Allison wins. Looking beautiful and not like a crazy bitch on the runway: Allison wins by far. 
• The final judging was a joke. Like all the amazing things they said about Allison, then they pick meth face Lisa? Seriously? You could tell the whole time that Allison was over it, especially when she had to give Lisa that fake ass congratulations hug. 
• Tyra’s hair is busted. She needs to stop it with those ugly bangs and put back on her long red weave from the old days.

Seriously like that was the biggest waste of a cycle. Wasting Allison’s talent like that. Forget cycle 18. Who cares if its US vs UK. Top Model is done. 

(Source: therainboworeo)

axlaxfoliexx:

Underwater - Allison Harvard

May Popeyes Chicken pa ba sa Manila or Pinull-out na nilang lahat?

hana-y-hani:

i wanted one ever since!

THIS CHRISTMAS. PLEASE.

Dear kind hearted people out there… I want these things for Christmas. :D

1.) AJ Rafael Red Roses Concert Tickets. It’s worth 2,050 with Meet and Greet Passes!!!! :D

2.) A heart locket. I’ve wanted this since last year, but no one gave it to me. :(

3.) A Game of Life set. HIHI. No questions needed.

4.) COMPLETE set of Harry Potter DVDs the ones with extra/deleted scenes. YAY! :D

5.) Plane Tickets to LA for next summer. (and NY too if you can handle it) I’D LOVE YOU.

6.) Rupert Grint at my doorstep with flowers and an engagement ring. <3

7.) My own magic wand from Ollivanders.

8.) A Harry Potter Spellbook! :D

9.) My own House Elf.

10.) A BANANA PILLOW. 

11.) A MONKEY STUFFED ANIMAL. :D

12.) Plane tickets to NY for my boyfriend.

13.) <a href=”http://www.facebook.com/styxstots“>Jay Sevilla</a>’s head on a silver platter. :)

14.) <a href=”http://www.facebook.com/keysisalvador“> HER</a> face as a dart board. Like her legit face.

15.) PEACE AND LOVE EVERYWHERE. <3